Too Early for Goodbye

i dont know when the first tear fell
and i cant say when the last will fall
appearing endless,
they have broken past the levee's
of my eyelids
pushed forward by the force
of pain and hopelessness
lost, im drowning in the unknown

there is a need to see your face
to have your hand in mine
even if my fingers tremble slightly
i just want to sit in the room with you
let the silence consume me
because sitting silently in your presence
is better than being three hundred and twenty miles away
wallowing in heartache

and this isnt the way i wanted to use
you as a muse
this pen was to record the deeds
of our childhood times
and leave notebooks overflowing with deeds
of our seeds
so we would reflect on those times
in between celebrating sunrises and mourning sunsets
we would share laughs
as deeply rooted as our grey hairs
stronger and more profound than our wrinkles

i ask you
send a message wrapped as a dream
to be delivered by one of the ancestors
tellin me that you...you will be alright
cause its too early in our lives
for goodbye's
and my heart has your name
wrapped around an endless supply of
i love you's

and in this day and time
too many things go to waste
and God, it would be unfair
to let the words wilt away
especially during a time
when it seems those three words
used together
are the farthest things
from most of your childrens minds

yet, the words weigh this child down
and even though you have given me
an abundance of blessings
i selfishly ask for one more blessing...NOW
cause im not prepared at this time
to say a final goodbye
not when there remains in my heart
so many unused
i love you's
its just too early for goodbye

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