i hope that everyone had a good and safe holiday!
not that i dont like the X-Mas Holiday but im glad its over....no more:
Christmas music being played at the job 24-7. (didnt know there were so many versions of silent night).
People complaining about how long the lines are.
People tearing up the store like ants at a picnic.
People acting rude and ignorant...even though this is SUPPOSE to me 'MERRY' time.
Christmas music being played 24-7.
Crazy store hours.
it will be good to get back to the normal pace of the grind and enjoy its peace for 11 months.
onelove
Monday, December 25, 2006
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Gratitude Wednesday (Thursday Edition)
im grateful for:
the Creator giving me another day...when so many didnt. it gives me the the strength to still see the sun on overcast days.
my daughter being my daughter...and always giving me reason to smile.
my mom and pop...who continue to put up with me as i struggle through life.
finally talked with my sons mother (face to face)...told her i was: stupid, immature and sorry...gave her my number and asked her to call, even if its just to curse me out for an hour! if it leads to me seeing my son, it will be worth it.
the Creator: 1. giving me the strength to talk to her. 2.giving me the chance to talk with her alone....nervous is not a strong enough word for what i was feeling.
the Creator for being so, so, so, so good to me.
ALL OF YOU and the positive energy concerning this subject...THANK YOU.
the holiday...and my cousin being home to enjoy it.
for cousin being released from prison...maybe he can help HIS son that acts JUST like
him without ever being around him.
funny text messages from Curly Sue and the Nerd...that keep me from killing customers while at work.
poetry...even though i havent written or performed in a while.
Queue...offering her home to me for the holiday...thanks sis.
Ebony..for getting on me to do my list (even though its a day late)
Blogger not being MYSPACE...i have TWO HUNDRED 'friends' there but feel more connected to the TEN 'friends' here....
ALL OF YOU...who read my blog without me having to beg...and for friending me in your hearts.
all the blessing giving by the Creator...those seen and unseen. those granted and those not yet. as Yolanda Adams says "the good shepard knows whats best for me".
HAVE A HAPPY AND SAFE HOLIDAY BLOGGER FAM......
ONELOVE
the Creator giving me another day...when so many didnt. it gives me the the strength to still see the sun on overcast days.
my daughter being my daughter...and always giving me reason to smile.
my mom and pop...who continue to put up with me as i struggle through life.
finally talked with my sons mother (face to face)...told her i was: stupid, immature and sorry...gave her my number and asked her to call, even if its just to curse me out for an hour! if it leads to me seeing my son, it will be worth it.
the Creator: 1. giving me the strength to talk to her. 2.giving me the chance to talk with her alone....nervous is not a strong enough word for what i was feeling.
the Creator for being so, so, so, so good to me.
ALL OF YOU and the positive energy concerning this subject...THANK YOU.
the holiday...and my cousin being home to enjoy it.
for cousin being released from prison...maybe he can help HIS son that acts JUST like
him without ever being around him.
funny text messages from Curly Sue and the Nerd...that keep me from killing customers while at work.
poetry...even though i havent written or performed in a while.
Queue...offering her home to me for the holiday...thanks sis.
Ebony..for getting on me to do my list (even though its a day late)
Blogger not being MYSPACE...i have TWO HUNDRED 'friends' there but feel more connected to the TEN 'friends' here....
ALL OF YOU...who read my blog without me having to beg...and for friending me in your hearts.
all the blessing giving by the Creator...those seen and unseen. those granted and those not yet. as Yolanda Adams says "the good shepard knows whats best for me".
HAVE A HAPPY AND SAFE HOLIDAY BLOGGER FAM......
ONELOVE
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
My Wed List.
I'm grateful for:
the Creator giving me another day of: air, sunshine, wind and life.
the the feeling of inner peace during good and bad times....well, not 100% peace but its higher than where it would have been 5 years ago.
my daughter giving me reason to find that peace....spent a couple hours together Sunday. she talked while taking down her hair, I listened. I enjoyed it!
even though my baby girl is almost taller than me, she STILL looks up to me!
all the positive energy I'm getting from friends concerning Malik and I reconnecting. it gives a brother hope.
text messages because sometime I don't wanna talk or can't talk but can still say 'hi'.
the challange of staring at blank piece of paper and filling it with words.
growing up in the 70's and experiencing the 'old school' music (see previous post, please) when it was NEW... MAKE MY FUNK THE P-FUNK, I WANTS TO GET FUNKED UP. I WANT THE BOMB, I WANT THE P-FUNK, I WANT MY FUNK UNCUT.
all those that remember jammin to that song or any other 'old school" song while in your living room, basement or at a house party! where is my pick with the fist on it!
the....laughter...and smiles...and hugs...and love of family and friends
the Creator and all blessing givin and those unseen. for blessing that yet to happen.
those prayers that went unanswered because the Creator KNEW better than I.
all of YOU for once again taking the time out of busy lives to peep into mine. THANK YOU!
the Creator giving me another day of: air, sunshine, wind and life.
the the feeling of inner peace during good and bad times....well, not 100% peace but its higher than where it would have been 5 years ago.
my daughter giving me reason to find that peace....spent a couple hours together Sunday. she talked while taking down her hair, I listened. I enjoyed it!
even though my baby girl is almost taller than me, she STILL looks up to me!
all the positive energy I'm getting from friends concerning Malik and I reconnecting. it gives a brother hope.
text messages because sometime I don't wanna talk or can't talk but can still say 'hi'.
the challange of staring at blank piece of paper and filling it with words.
growing up in the 70's and experiencing the 'old school' music (see previous post, please) when it was NEW... MAKE MY FUNK THE P-FUNK, I WANTS TO GET FUNKED UP. I WANT THE BOMB, I WANT THE P-FUNK, I WANT MY FUNK UNCUT.
all those that remember jammin to that song or any other 'old school" song while in your living room, basement or at a house party! where is my pick with the fist on it!
the....laughter...and smiles...and hugs...and love of family and friends
the Creator and all blessing givin and those unseen. for blessing that yet to happen.
those prayers that went unanswered because the Creator KNEW better than I.
all of YOU for once again taking the time out of busy lives to peep into mine. THANK YOU!
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
the old school.
a couple of co-workers and i were discussing music one day last week; naming songs, groups,etc. well, we then touched on the 'staying power' of the old school artist......who after 20 or more years in the business, are still doing their thing without a MAJOR hit or record deal. the Isley Brothers are the only ones to have a hit in recent years (thanks to R. Kelly). most of the artist mentioned where doing their thing in the 70's and 80's but there are those from the 50's and 60's still touring.
then we started talking about the R&B artist of today and how most of them dont have the talent to be around 20 years. outside of say; Erykah, India, Jill, Mary and maybe Musiq, i dont see too many doing it like that. hell, most of the artist at the top of the charts NOW, wont be around in 10 years.
whats really interesting is that the older groups will go through personnel changes and might have one ORIGINAL member left and people will STILL go see them (see Temptations). the O'jays...have two members that we all know and love but that dude in the middle could be changed twenty times without us blinking an eye. the Isley brothers went from ten members to six to three to two....and we still love them...and the whispers can change EVERYONE in the group but the TWINS have to be a part of it!
give me prince, stevie wonder, frankie beverly, george clinton, the isley's and the whispers over some of these folks. in the long run, talent and GOOD music will prevail over the 'pour and stir' artist any day!
long live the old school!
then we started talking about the R&B artist of today and how most of them dont have the talent to be around 20 years. outside of say; Erykah, India, Jill, Mary and maybe Musiq, i dont see too many doing it like that. hell, most of the artist at the top of the charts NOW, wont be around in 10 years.
whats really interesting is that the older groups will go through personnel changes and might have one ORIGINAL member left and people will STILL go see them (see Temptations). the O'jays...have two members that we all know and love but that dude in the middle could be changed twenty times without us blinking an eye. the Isley brothers went from ten members to six to three to two....and we still love them...and the whispers can change EVERYONE in the group but the TWINS have to be a part of it!
give me prince, stevie wonder, frankie beverly, george clinton, the isley's and the whispers over some of these folks. in the long run, talent and GOOD music will prevail over the 'pour and stir' artist any day!
long live the old school!
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Yesterday (Wednesday) at Work.
working retail has its rewards; helping someone find the perfect outfit, watching the scenes of my childhood through someone else (my mom wanting to see my clothes ON)and interesting conversations with customers.
then there are days like yesterday.
im walking to the breakroom...and i see a young couple (between 19 and 20)with a lil girl, shopping in the kids section. no big deal right? well, as i walk pass them, i see the female breaking a security censor off a coat. i stop, tell the young sister 'dont do it' and take the coat. i tell her, 'that im suppose to call the police' but i choose not to. she comments about really wanting the coat and pulls out some money out her pocket! im lookin at her like,'stupid ass kid makin out people look bad'...i dont know how much money she had, just the point she had money.
this is where it gets crazy.
me, not wanting to see another of my people handcuffed and paraded through the mall, give her back the coat. before giving her back the coat, i express my desire that she
pays for the coat rather than steal it....and with that, walked away.
im not sure if she paid for the coat or walked out with it. part of me wants to believe she paid for it...but in reality, i know she didnt. i was hoping that by showing some compassion, she would feel guilty and do the right thing. but now I feel
guilty for giving her the option. i should have just taken the coat and told them to leave the store.
i love my job but sometimes its a bitch!
then there are days like yesterday.
im walking to the breakroom...and i see a young couple (between 19 and 20)with a lil girl, shopping in the kids section. no big deal right? well, as i walk pass them, i see the female breaking a security censor off a coat. i stop, tell the young sister 'dont do it' and take the coat. i tell her, 'that im suppose to call the police' but i choose not to. she comments about really wanting the coat and pulls out some money out her pocket! im lookin at her like,'stupid ass kid makin out people look bad'...i dont know how much money she had, just the point she had money.
this is where it gets crazy.
me, not wanting to see another of my people handcuffed and paraded through the mall, give her back the coat. before giving her back the coat, i express my desire that she
pays for the coat rather than steal it....and with that, walked away.
im not sure if she paid for the coat or walked out with it. part of me wants to believe she paid for it...but in reality, i know she didnt. i was hoping that by showing some compassion, she would feel guilty and do the right thing. but now I feel
guilty for giving her the option. i should have just taken the coat and told them to leave the store.
i love my job but sometimes its a bitch!
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Gratitude Wednesday
Today is the Family and Friends Edition
i am grateful for:
the Creator...for giving another day
Mom and Pop...for putting up with me and all my BS
Courtney...for not only being a SUPER daughter but for giving me reason to rise!
Malik...for being. i look forward to seeing you again lil Papi.
Stephanie...for being a being a GREAT cousin, sister and friend. the road ahead will be hard but you will make it.
Chris M...for being a friend. we arent as tight as we used to be but I got ya back always.
Poetry...for being my peace!
MY Neo-Soul family...for ALL THE LOVE BEFORE WE EVEN MET and THE CONTINUED LOVE ONCE WE DID. i aint officially in the family (gotta hit that stage)but i feel like it! I LOVE YA'LL
K.I.M...for writings that shake my emotions awake when its sleep and sends me back to those happy times of a kid. something about those Grandma's.
Angel...for tellin me to blog more, making me laugh, being crazy and for that nassssy but tasteful poetry.
Cousin Sarah...for being a nerd, who writes poetry from her soul. you too shake my emotions with your writing.
Ebony...for all the poetry about love. it makes me continue to believe in it. also, for being a lil sister that can cheer a brother up by posting a comment. where is my invite to the wedding?
Chell...for posting every BLUE moon. i dont feel so bad when slacking off! i miss your poetry but im glad that you are out there spreading your words.
Element615...for being a stalker and commenting out of nowhere! im glad that you TOO are out there making it happen. but you need to post more!
Joey...for funny post, pics of those kids and for being a reluctant poet,lol.
NEEEEEEEEE OOOOOOOOO
I aint forgot about:
Que...for standing strong during concerts, taking hot pictures, for a family that makes me laugh and for being one of the few poets in St.Louis thats supportive. you need to post more poems!
Blujewel...for always keeping me on my toes with your post. im glad you came by my place.
Trizzy...for strength and courage to keep moving along and enjoy life!
i am grateful for:
the Creator...for giving another day
Mom and Pop...for putting up with me and all my BS
Courtney...for not only being a SUPER daughter but for giving me reason to rise!
Malik...for being. i look forward to seeing you again lil Papi.
Stephanie...for being a being a GREAT cousin, sister and friend. the road ahead will be hard but you will make it.
Chris M...for being a friend. we arent as tight as we used to be but I got ya back always.
Poetry...for being my peace!
MY Neo-Soul family...for ALL THE LOVE BEFORE WE EVEN MET and THE CONTINUED LOVE ONCE WE DID. i aint officially in the family (gotta hit that stage)but i feel like it! I LOVE YA'LL
K.I.M...for writings that shake my emotions awake when its sleep and sends me back to those happy times of a kid. something about those Grandma's.
Angel...for tellin me to blog more, making me laugh, being crazy and for that nassssy but tasteful poetry.
Cousin Sarah...for being a nerd, who writes poetry from her soul. you too shake my emotions with your writing.
Ebony...for all the poetry about love. it makes me continue to believe in it. also, for being a lil sister that can cheer a brother up by posting a comment. where is my invite to the wedding?
Chell...for posting every BLUE moon. i dont feel so bad when slacking off! i miss your poetry but im glad that you are out there spreading your words.
Element615...for being a stalker and commenting out of nowhere! im glad that you TOO are out there making it happen. but you need to post more!
Joey...for funny post, pics of those kids and for being a reluctant poet,lol.
NEEEEEEEEE OOOOOOOOO
I aint forgot about:
Que...for standing strong during concerts, taking hot pictures, for a family that makes me laugh and for being one of the few poets in St.Louis thats supportive. you need to post more poems!
Blujewel...for always keeping me on my toes with your post. im glad you came by my place.
Trizzy...for strength and courage to keep moving along and enjoy life!
Monday, December 04, 2006
Guess What!
WE GOT POWER!
WE GOT POWER!
WE GOT POWER!
its warm in the house and i can see.....its a beautiful thing!
thanks for keeping a brothers spirits up.
WE GOT POWER!
WE GOT POWER!
WE GOT POWER!
its warm in the house and i can see.....its a beautiful thing!
thanks for keeping a brothers spirits up.
WE GOT POWER!
Day Four
ok, this reminds me of july.
day four without power (read previous post)
this sucks
please send: a warm sleeping bag and hot chocolate with marshmellows!
one
day four without power (read previous post)
this sucks
please send: a warm sleeping bag and hot chocolate with marshmellows!
one
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Update...good and bad.
the bad:
turkey day sucked...spent the day alone. mom was in chicago and pops was in southern ill. while i got to spend the day watching tv and playing on the internet.
once again the weather has bitch slapped St.Louis and its surrounding cities. if you remember during the summer, a thunder, high wind, lighting and rain storm rolled through in August and knocked the power out for almost a week.....well this time, it was a sleet and snow storm that did us in, knocking out power fo the next four days! Now, i can sweat it out in the heat for a couple of days BUT a brother cant do the cold! i would cuddle up with a neo nazi, a klansman and skinhead to keep warm.
i was ok with a storm knocking out power once this year but twice is too much for people to take. in my 37 years of living, i have never had this happen in one year. this has to be taking a toll on people because its taking a toll on me. my parents had to take refuge in Chesterfield which is 30 minutest away because there were no rooms close to the house.
i havent finished a poem
the good:
my daughter, Courtney, is on the step team at her school. and they had a competition this past Monday and came in second. their competition were collage age girls who didnt stand a chance! did i mention that Courtney is in middle school? so a big YAY to her and the whole team!
my cousin, Stephanie, went home for Turkey day and this week, she went home for good. my mother took pictures of Stephanie while in Chicago and she is still beautiful but one could see somethings not right. im sure all that will change over time....its just good that my cousin is at home with her family!
i finally got my wireless internet card through Sprint. no more waiting for the neighbor to get on line or riding to the local coffee shop to get a connection. the card has unlimited usage so i can get on anytime that i want! also, im getting most of the money spent on the card BACK in rebates! besides, iwas getting tired of updating this blog from on the SECOND laptop.....lol.
im writing....slowly.
well, thats it. i hope that things are going well with all of you.
turkey day sucked...spent the day alone. mom was in chicago and pops was in southern ill. while i got to spend the day watching tv and playing on the internet.
once again the weather has bitch slapped St.Louis and its surrounding cities. if you remember during the summer, a thunder, high wind, lighting and rain storm rolled through in August and knocked the power out for almost a week.....well this time, it was a sleet and snow storm that did us in, knocking out power fo the next four days! Now, i can sweat it out in the heat for a couple of days BUT a brother cant do the cold! i would cuddle up with a neo nazi, a klansman and skinhead to keep warm.
i was ok with a storm knocking out power once this year but twice is too much for people to take. in my 37 years of living, i have never had this happen in one year. this has to be taking a toll on people because its taking a toll on me. my parents had to take refuge in Chesterfield which is 30 minutest away because there were no rooms close to the house.
i havent finished a poem
the good:
my daughter, Courtney, is on the step team at her school. and they had a competition this past Monday and came in second. their competition were collage age girls who didnt stand a chance! did i mention that Courtney is in middle school? so a big YAY to her and the whole team!
my cousin, Stephanie, went home for Turkey day and this week, she went home for good. my mother took pictures of Stephanie while in Chicago and she is still beautiful but one could see somethings not right. im sure all that will change over time....its just good that my cousin is at home with her family!
i finally got my wireless internet card through Sprint. no more waiting for the neighbor to get on line or riding to the local coffee shop to get a connection. the card has unlimited usage so i can get on anytime that i want! also, im getting most of the money spent on the card BACK in rebates! besides, iwas getting tired of updating this blog from on the SECOND laptop.....lol.
im writing....slowly.
well, thats it. i hope that things are going well with all of you.
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