Cookie & I

took these last week...

This is some BULLSHIT!!

At this moment, there is negative energy swirling around me....and it wasnt by my creation. ok, maybe it was...maybe its karma but i dont know why, i didnt do anything wrong. here is the short version (hold ya hats):

Part 1 - almost ten years ago, i meet a young lady (umm, we shall call her 'S', at a club....like her but the feeling arent mutual. so we really good friends. we go places with our daughters, attend concerts and hit the social scenes. nothing sexual at all...we are cool.

Part 2 - Six years ago while attending a local open mic, i become cool with the Dj (we shall call him 'K'). we both have eclectic taste in music...we dont become homies but get pretty cool. we would see each other and would have conversation...no problem.

Part 3 - Four years ago, i meet a young lady on line (we shall call her 'T')....i find we enjoy a LOT of the same things; music, books and movies, etc...well, 'T' and i start hanging out...she tells me that, there is someone in her life but she's not sure where they stand....ok, no problem. no feeling involved, yet!

Stay with me people.....

Part 4 - i find out that the "someone in T's life" is the dj friend "K"! smack me with a brick....by the time i find out, 'T' and i have feeling for each other. had i known earlier, things wouldnt have progressed between 'T' and I.

Part 5 - fast forward to 08...."S" and i, are still friends. "T" and i have broken up. "K" and i are friendly but the "T" has made thing a little crazy.....

ok, here we go....

Part 6 - "S" and "K" begin talking...dating? i dont know....through their conversations, some things pass between the two like:

1. S tells K, that im in love with her to the point i have tried to end relationships she's had. NOT!

2. K tells S, that i was foul for wanting T when they were dating. Umm, i didnt KNOW they were dating in the beginning.

3. T emails Me, telling me ALL that S has told K.....so, now i get twenty question about my relationship about S.

4. S and i arent talking...not because of the above mess but some other bullshit.....

If you are still reading....you are a trooper. if you left and came back...you are nosy. lol...

if this is Karma....its some bullshit that should be written with capitals letters!!

it needs to end!!

Joy Denalane - Let Go

Im sooo diggin her.....the sister is REALLY being slept on!!

Joy Denalane feat. Lupe Fiasco - Change

i have been banging this for a while....listen to the words!!!

The Grateful List....

im grateful for:

~the Most High, allowing me another day to enjoy is most beautiful creation, LIFE. i can see the beauty of life, even during storms

~Courtney, and i great weekend spent together. We went to Legacy Friday, took her to the mall Saturday, so she could hangout with friends. met her new 'male friend', he is into poetry. Sunday, we went to the flea market.....great fun. i missed her.

~the teenager in her, staying on the phone ALL NIGHT with the 'male friend'. daddy isnt the main man in her life anymore.

~She and i are gonna take professional pics....YAY!

~Being able to enjoy the words, energy, spirit and beauty of Shannon Leigh.

~Her spirit inspiring me to write a poem....about her. RIP my sister poet.

~Mom, making a banana pudding! it doesnt get better than this!

~Strawberry Haagen Dazs Ice Cream.....the great relaxer when the world is kickin my azz!

~Converse, fuck Jordans, give me a pair of Chucks...they go with EVERYTHING.

~IM's with the NERD...yes, Lewis Black is funny as hell!!

~Live music, hear and seeing Algebra and Big Brooklyn Red, was awesome. Big Brooklyn Red, is one cool, smooth azz white dude....who can sing!!

PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE; check the music on his MYSPACE PAGE: http://www.myspace.com/bigbrooklynred

~YOU, for taking a moment out of you life, to read this words. THANK YOU.

~the Most High, for prayers answered and those not. blessings seen and those not seen. YOU, know whats best for me!!


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